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Diana skulle egentlig hilst på foreldrene mine etter semesterslutt den sommeren, men tre uker før vi dro fra London, fikk jeg beskjeden om bilulykken. Diana|should|actually|greeted|at|parents|my|after|semester end|that|summer|but|three|weeks|before|we|left|from|London|got|I|message|about|car accident Diana was supposed to meet my parents after the semester ended that summer, but three weeks before we left London, I received the news about the car accident. På vei hjem fra hytta, hadde politimannen sagt på den sprakende telefonlinjen. on|way|home|from|cabin|had|the policeman|said|on|the|crackling|phone line On the way home from the cabin, the policeman had said on the crackling phone line. Kveld, regn, bilen hadde holdt for stort fart. evening|rain|the car|had|kept|too|high|speed Evening, rain, the car had been going too fast. Gamleveien hadde vært lagt om midlertidig, motorveiutbygging. the old road|had|been|laid|changed|temporarily|highway construction The old road had been temporarily rerouted, highway construction. En ny, kanskje litt ulogisk sving, men markert med fareskilt. a|new|perhaps|a little|illogical|turn|but|marked|with|warning sign A new, perhaps somewhat illogical turn, but marked with warning signs. Den nylagte asfalten slukte lys, det var klart. the|newly laid|asphalt|swallowed|light|it|was|clear The newly laid asphalt absorbed light, that was clear. En parkert anleggsmaskin. a|parked|construction machine A parked construction machine. Jeg hadde avbrutt politimannen og sagt at de burde ta en promilletest av faren min. I|had|interrupted|the policeman|and|said|that|they|should|take|a|breathalyzer test|of|my father|my I had interrupted the policeman and said that they should do a breathalyzer test on my father. Bare så de fikk bekreftet det jeg alt visste: at han hadde tatt livet av mor. just|so|they|got|confirmed|that|I|already|knew|that|he|had|taken|life|of|mother Just so they could confirm what I already knew: that he had taken my mother's life.

Den kvelden, alene på en pub i Baron's Court, var første gangen jeg smakte alkohol. that|evening|alone|in|a|pub|in|Baron's|Court|was|first|time|I|tasted|alcohol That evening, alone in a pub in Baron's Court, was the first time I tasted alcohol. Og gråt offentlig. and|cried|publicly And cried in public. Kvelden da jeg vasket bort tårene på det stinkende pissoaret, så jeg min fars slappe, fordrukne ansikt i det sprukne speilet. the evening|when|I|washed|away|the tears|on|the|stinking|urinal|saw|I|my|father's|slack|drunken|face|in|the|cracked|mirror The evening when I wiped away the tears at the stinking urinal, I saw my father's slack, drunken face in the cracked mirror. Og husket den oppmerksomme, rolige gløden i øynene hans da han hadde slått mot sjakkbrikkene, slått dronningen som hadde virvlet gjennom lufta – to og en halv molberger – før hun hadde truffet gulvet. and|remembered|the|attentive|calm|glow|in|eyes|his|when|he|had|struck|against|the chess pieces|struck|the queen|that|had|swirled|through|air|two|and|a|half|molberger|before|she|had|hit|floor And I remembered the attentive, calm glow in his eyes when he had struck at the chess pieces, hitting the queen that had swirled through the air – two and a half molbergers – before she had hit the floor. Så hadde han slått meg. then|had|he|struck|me Then he had hit me. Bare denne ene gangen, men han hadde slått. only|this|one|time|but|he|had|struck Just that one time, but he had hit. Med flat hånd, under øret mitt. with|flat|hand|under|ear|my With a flat hand, under my ear. Og jeg hadde sett det da, i blikket hans; det mor kalte Sykdommen. and|I|had|seen|it|then|in|gaze|his|that|mother|called|the Disease And I had seen it then, in his gaze; what mother called The Illness. Og den var et heslig, grasiøst og blodtørstig monster som bodde bak øynene hans. and|it|was|a|hideous|graceful|and|bloodthirsty|monster|that|lived|behind|eyes|his And it was a hideous, graceful, and bloodthirsty monster that lived behind his eyes. Men den var også ham; min far, mitt eget kjøtt og blod. but|it|was|also|him|my|father|my|own|flesh|and|blood But it was also him; my father, my own flesh and blood.

Blod. blood Blood.

Noe som lå dypt nede, noe som lenge hadde ligget under alle lagene av benektelser, steg opp mot overflaten. something|that|lay|deep|down|something|that|long|had|lain|under|all|layers|of|denials|rose|up|towards|surface Something that lay deep down, something that had long been buried under all layers of denial, rose to the surface. Et utflytende minne av en tenkt tanke som ikke ville la seg holde nede lenger. a|flowing|memory|of|a|imagined|thought|that|not|would|let|itself|hold|down|longer A flowing memory of a thought that would no longer be suppressed. Den tok fastere form. it|took|firmer|shape It took a firmer shape. Ble smertefullt artikulert. became|painfully|articulated Became painfully articulated. Ble sannhet. became|truth Became truth. Sannheten jeg til nå hadde greid å holde på en armlengdes avstand ved å lyve for meg selv. the truth|I|until|now|had|managed|to|keep|at|an|arm's|distance|by|to|lie|to|myself|self The truth I had managed to keep at arm's length by lying to myself until now. For det var ikke frykten for å bli fortrengt av et barn som gjorde at jeg ikke ville ha barn. for|it|was|not|fear|of|to|become|repressed|by|a|child|that|made|that|I|not|wanted|to have|children For it was not the fear of being replaced by a child that made me not want children. Det var frykten for Sykdommen. it|was|the fear|of|the disease It was the fear of the disease. Frykten for at jeg, sønnen, også hadde den. the fear|of|that|I|the son|also|had|it The fear that I, the son, also had it. At den var der, bak øynene mine. that|it|was|there|behind|the eyes|my That it was there, behind my eyes. Jeg hadde løyet for alle. I|had|lied|to|everyone I had lied to everyone. Til Lotte hadde jeg sagt at jeg ikke ville ha barnet fordi det hadde en mangel, et syndrom, en kromosomfeil. to|Lotte|I had|I|said|that|I|not|would|have|the child|because|it|it had|a|defect|a|syndrome|a|chromosomal defect To Lotte, I had said that I did not want the child because it had a defect, a syndrome, a chromosomal error. Mens sannheten var at det var meg det var feil på. while|the truth|was|that|it|was|me|it|was|wrong|with While the truth was that it was me who was at fault.

Alt fløt nå. everything|flowed|now Everything was now in disarray. Mitt liv hadde vært et dødsbo, og nå hadde hjernen drapert møblene, lukket dørene, gjort seg klar til å stenge strømmen. my|life|had|been|a|estate|and|now|had|the brain|draped|the furniture|closed|the doors|made|itself|ready|to|to|shut|the power My life had been an estate of the deceased, and now my brain had draped the furniture, closed the doors, and was preparing to cut off the power. Det dryppet og rant, flommet fra øynene mine, over pannen, inn i hårfestet. it|dripped|and|ran|flooded|from|the eyes|my|over|the forehead|into|in|the hairline It dripped and flowed, streaming from my eyes, over my forehead, into my hairline. Å kveles av to menneskelige ballonger. to|be suffocated|by|two|human|balloons To be suffocated by two human balloons. Jeg tenkte på Lotte. I|thought|about|Lotte I thought of Lotte. Og der på terskelen demret noe for meg. and|there|on|the threshold|dawned|something|on|me And there on the threshold, something dawned on me. Jeg så lys. I|saw|light I saw light. Jeg så … Diana? I|saw|Diana I saw ... Diana? Hva gjorde den forrædersken her nå? what|did|that|traitor|here|now What was that traitor doing here now? Ballonger ... balloons Balloons ...

Den frie, dinglende hånda mi beveget seg bort til beautybagen. the|free|dangling|hand|my|moved|itself|away|to|beauty bag My free, dangling hand moved over to the beauty bag. Mine valne fingrer løsnet Sundeds fra håndtaket og åpnet. my|numb|fingers|loosened|Sundeds|from|handle|and|opened My numb fingers loosened Sundeds from the handle and opened it. Det dryppet bensin fra meg og ned i bagen mens jeg rotet rundt, dro opp en skjorte, et par sokker, en truse og en toalettveske. it|dripped|gasoline|from|me|and|down|into|bag|while|I|rummaged|around|pulled|up|a|shirt|a|pair|socks|a|pair of underwear|and|a|toiletry bag Gasoline dripped from me and into the bag as I rummaged around, pulling up a shirt, a pair of socks, a pair of underwear, and a toiletry bag. Det var alt. it|was|all That was all. Jeg åpnet toalettveska med den frie hånda og tømte innholdet ned på innertaket. I|opened|the toilet bag|with|the|free|hand|and|emptied|the contents|down|onto|the inner roof I opened the toiletry bag with my free hand and emptied its contents onto the ceiling. Tannkrem, en barbermaskin, plaster, sjampo, en gjennomsiktig plastpose han utvilsomt brukte i sikkerhetskontrollen på flyplasser, vaselin … der! toothpaste|a|razor|band-aid|shampoo|a|transparent|plastic bag|he|undoubtedly|used|in|security check|at|airports|vaseline|there Toothpaste, a razor, band-aids, shampoo, a transparent plastic bag he undoubtedly used at security checks in airports, petroleum jelly... there! En saks, en sånn spiss, liten sak som er litt bøyd opp i tuppen, og som noen av en eller annen grunn foretrekker fremfor moderne negleklippere. a|scissors|a|such|pointed|small|thing|that|is|a bit|bent|up|at|the tip|and|that|some|for|some|or|other|reason|prefer|over|modern|nail clippers A pair of scissors, one of those sharp, small things that are slightly bent at the tip, which some for some reason prefer over modern nail clippers.

Jeg famlet med hånda oppover en av tvillingene, over vommen, over brystet, prøvde å finne en glidelås eller knapper. I|fumbled|with|hand|upwards|one|of|the twins|over|belly|over|chest|tried|to|find|a|zipper|or|buttons I fumbled with my hand up one of the twins, over the belly, over the chest, trying to find a zipper or buttons. Men jeg var i ferd med å miste følelsen og fingrene ville verken lystre ordre fra eller sende informasjon til hjernen. but|I|was|in|process|with|to|lose|feeling|and|fingers|would|neither|obey|orders|from|or|send|information|to|brain But I was about to lose feeling and my fingers would neither obey orders from nor send information to the brain. Så jeg grep saksen og kjørte spissen i vommen til … tja, la oss si det var Endride. so|I|grabbed|scissors|and|drove|tip|into|belly|of|well|let|us|say|it|was|Endride So I grabbed the scissors and drove the tip into the belly of ... well, let's say it was Endride.