ما قبل الحجاب وبعده what|before|the veil|and after it Vor und nach dem Hijab Before and After the Veil

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كيف منتحرك في مدننا وبيوتنا وشوارعنا؟ how|we move|in|our cities|and our houses|and our streets How do we move in our cities, homes, and streets?

شو اللي بيحد من حركتنا؟ what|that|limits|from|our movement What limits our movement?

وشو اللي بيسهلها؟ and what|that|makes it easier What makes it easier?

أنا رامة سبانخ I am|Rama|spinach I am Rama Spinach.

بقدم لكم بودكاست عيب بموسم الثامن من إنتاج صوت I present|to you|podcast|Aib|in season|eighth|from|production|Sawt I present to you the podcast "Ayb" in its eighth season produced by Sawt.

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بها الموسم رح نستعرض قصص لناس عم بيحاولوا يتحركوا بحرية in this|season|I will|we will showcase|stories|for people|currently|they are trying|they move|freely In this season, we will showcase stories of people trying to move freely.

رغم كل المعيقات اللي بتقيدهم ||Hindernisse|| despite|all|obstacles|that|restrict them Despite all the obstacles that restrict them.

باسم العيب in the name of|shame In the name of shame.

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الأسماء المستعملة بهاي الحلقة the names|used|in this|episode The names used in this episode

مستعارة للحفاظ على خصية المتحدثة ausgeliehen|||| borrowed|to maintain|on|characteristic|the speaker Borrowed to preserve the speaker's identity

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تجربتنا مع المساحات مش تجربة بتطلع من فراغ ||Räume||||| our experience|with|spaces|not|experience|it comes out|from|void Our experience with spaces is not an experience that comes out of nowhere

بل هي نتاج لحركتنا الاجتماعية في المكان but|it|product|of our movement|social|in|place But it is the result of our social movement in the place.

نحن منكونها بأداءنا وترجمتنا لمكنوناتنا ||durch unsere Leistung||Innere Werte we|we form it|with our performance|and our translation|of our inner feelings We shape it through our performance and the translation of our inner selves.

مبادئنا our principles Our principles.

الأشياء اللي منحبها the things|that|we love The things we love.

الأشياء اللي ما منحبها the things|that|not|we like The things we don't like

طريقة حكينا ماشينا وحتى تعابيرنا the way|we talked|we walked|and even|our expressions The way we talk, our mannerisms, and even our expressions

كل هاي كمان بتختلف حسب مين موجود وين all|this|also|it differs|according to|who|present|where All of this also varies depending on who is present and where

وحتى مع نفس الناس ونفس الأماكن تجربتنا لنفس المساحة ما بتتكرر مرتين and even|with|the same|people|and the same|places|our experience|in the same|space|not|it repeats|twice And even with the same people and the same places, our experience of the same space does not repeat itself twice

كيف ممكن لبسنا للحجاب وشلحه يأثر علينا وعلى محيطنا how|possible|our wearing|the hijab|and its removal|affects|us|and on|our environment How can our wearing of the hijab and its removal affect us and our surroundings?

بالذات لما ييجي مع هذا اللباس معاني كتير ||||||Bedeutungen| especially|when|it comes|with|this|clothing|meanings|many Vor allem, wenn dieses Kleid viele Bedeutungen hat Especially when this attire comes with many meanings.

إذا مش للشخص اللي لابسه فأكيد للمجتمع الأكبر if|not|for the person|who|wearing it|then surely|for the society|larger If not for the person wearing it, then certainly for the larger community.

وبناء عليه الناس بتبني عالم من الافتراضات ||||||die Annahmen and based|on it|people|build|world|of|assumptions As a result, people build a world of assumptions.

شو لازم تكوني بتسوي وكيف بتتصرفي what|must|you be|you do|and how|you behave What should you be doing and how should you behave?

شو انتي ووين فعليا مفروض تكوني what|you|and where|actually|supposed|you be What are you and where are you actually supposed to be?

بهاي الحلقة بدي أخرج من ثنائية الحجاب كالشيء الجيد وشلحه كالشيء السيء |||||Dualität|Hijab||||| in this|episode|I want|I get out|from|duality|hijab|as the thing|good|and taking it off|as the thing|bad In dieser Folge möchte ich aus der Dualität herauskommen, dass der Hijab eine gute Sache ist und dass man ihn als eine schlechte Sache trägt In this episode, I want to break away from the binary of the hijab as a good thing and taking it off as a bad thing.

أو الثنائية التانية تبعت الحجاب الشيء وشلحه الجيد |Dualität|||||| or|duality|the second|regarding|hijab|the thing|and taking it off|good Or the other binary regarding the hijab as a good thing and taking it off.

هدول الاتجاهات ما بيفيدو إلا بزيادة التنميط |die Richtungen||nützen|||Stereotypisierung these|trends|not|they benefit|except|with increasing|stereotyping Diese Trends verstärken nur die Stereotypisierung These trends only serve to increase stereotyping.

وبيقرروا عن المرأة اللي لابستو شو أنسبلها وشو أفضل لها من دون حق ||||||anziehen|||||| and they decide|about|the woman|that|I wore|what|suitable for her|and what|better|for her|than|without|right Sie entscheiden für die Frau, die trägt, was für sie angemessen ist und was für sie am besten ist, ohne ein Recht darauf zu haben And they decide for the woman wearing it what is suitable for her and what is best for her without any right.

وبيخرق واضح لخصيتها وحقها بالاختيار and it violates|clear|her personality|and her right|to choose And it is a clear violation of her personality and her right to choose.

بدل هذا الطرح المبسط مع ضيفة حلقتنا اليوم رح ندخل بصلب تجربة الحجاب والمساحات ||dieser Ansatz|vereinfachte||Gäste|||||in die Tiefe||| instead of|this|approach|simplified|with|guest|our episode|today|will|we enter|into the core of|experience|hijab|and spaces Anstelle dieser vereinfachten Darstellung werden wir mit dem Gast unserer heutigen Folge tiefer in die Kernerfahrung des Hijab und der Räume eintauchen Instead of this simplified approach, with our guest today we will delve into the essence of the hijab experience and the spaces.

رح نسمع عن تجربة سيمة بلبسه وشلحه I will|we hear|about|experience|Sima|in her wearing|and in his taking off We will hear about Seema's experience with her clothing and its removal.

وتفاعلها مع البيت والمكتب والمدينة وحتى مع نفسها and her interaction|with|home|office|city|even|with|herself And her interaction with home, office, the city, and even with herself.

شو الصعوبات اللي واجهتها؟ شو الدوافع؟ شو القصص؟ وشو الصدمات اللي صارت مع دوائرها؟ |||||die Motivationen||||||||ihren Kreisen what|difficulties|that|I faced|what|motivations|what|stories|and what|shocks|that|happened|with|her circles What difficulties did she face? What were her motivations? What are the stories? And what shocks occurred with her circles?

بالصف التامن قررت ألبس الحجاب in the class|eighth|I decided|to wear|the hijab In the eighth grade, I decided to wear the hijab.

وبتخيل بهذا أكبر عمره أكتر وقت بيكون فيه تأثير كتير كبير من الصحابات and I imagine|this|biggest|age|more|time|it is|in it|influence|very|big|from|friends And I imagine that this is the biggest age where there is a very significant influence from the friends.

اللي عم نكون معاهم من ساعة الدين that|present continuous marker|we are|with them|since|hour|religion The ones we have been with since the time of religion.

الأفكار اللي بتكون عم تنحط فينا ideas|that|they are|present continuous marker|they are placed|in us The ideas that are being instilled in us.

كل أفكار الأهل اللي كانوا عم بيعطونا إياها من إحنا وصغار all|ideas|parents|that|they were|present continuous marker|they were giving us|it|since|we|we were young All the ideas from our parents that they have been giving us since we were young.

كيف بشوف خالاتي عماتي how|I see|my aunts|my maternal aunts How I see my aunts and cousins.

الناس المقربين عنا بالعائلة the people|close|to us|in the family The people closest to us in the family.

هو هذا وكان من أكتر الأسباب اللي خلتني أكون عم بلبس الإشارة this|this|and it was|one of|the most|reasons|that|it made me|to be|I am|I wear|the sign This was one of the main reasons that made me wear the sign.

وقتيها كنت يمكن مقتنعة فيه أو يمكن حابة at that time|I was|maybe|convinced|in it|or|maybe|I liked At that time, I might have been convinced of it or maybe I liked it.

عشان كل حدا حوالي عم بيكون لابس الحجاب because|every|person|around|present continuous marker|he is|wearing|the hijab Because everyone around me is wearing the hijab.

بس إذا أنا نفسي كان هذا البدية ما بعرف but|if|I|myself|was|this|the beginning|not|I know But if I myself had this beginning, I don't know.

مع العلام ما كان فيه ولا أي ضغوطات من الأهل with|the sign|not|was|there was|nor|any|pressures|from|the parents With the signs, there were no pressures from the family.

لا أمي ولا أبوي ولا أخواني not|my mother|nor|my father|nor|my siblings Neither my mother nor my father nor my siblings.

بس خلاص هو كان قراري وأنا أخذت هذا القرار مني ومن حالي |||||||||von mir||meiner selbst but|that's it|he|was|my decision|and I|I took|this|decision|from me|and from|my state But that's it, it was my decision and I made this decision for myself.

وعندما نكبر نجمع أحداث ومواقف تشكلنا وبتشكل فكرنا and when|we grow up|we gather|events|and situations|they shape us|and they shape|our thinking And as we grow up, we gather events and situations that shape us and shape our thoughts.

ونحن مبارح مش زي نحن اليوم ومش زي نحن بكرة وبعده and we|yesterday|not|like|we|today|and not|like|we|tomorrow|and the day after And we are not like we were yesterday, and we are not like we will be tomorrow and the day after.

قرارها كان نابع من مكان بطل يشوف الحجاب عم بيناسب أسلوب حياتها her decision|was|stemming|from|place|he stopped|seeing|the hijab|while|it suits|style|her life Her decision came from a place that no longer sees the hijab as fitting her lifestyle.

وين بتروح وشو بتعمل where|you go|and what|you do Where are you going and what are you doing?

ببساطة بطلت سيمة مرتاحة فيه simply|I stopped|a trait|comfortable|in it Simply, I stopped feeling comfortable in it.

وبلشت تدور في خيالها وكيف تنبأ فيها and I started|to think|in|her imagination|and how|to predict|in it And I started to explore in my imagination how it predicted me.

بلشت مشاعر تختلف بالنسبة للحجاب لما كنت بالجامعة I started|feelings|to differ|regarding|the hijab|when|I was|in college My feelings about the hijab started to change when I was at university.

بس ما كان هذا التأثير الكتير كبير but|not|was|this|influence|very|big But this effect wasn't very big.

ما كانت فكرة أنه بدي أشلح الحجاب واردة أصلاً |||||||vorhanden möglich| not|was|idea|that|I want|I take off|the hijab|coming to mind|at all The idea of taking off the hijab wasn't even on my mind.

بس أنه ما كنت عارفة إذا but|that|not|I was|knowing|if I just didn't know if...

هاد الإشي اللي أنا عم بكون مرتاحة فيه ولا إشي تعودت عليه this|thing|that|I|am|I am|comfortable|in it|or|thing|I got used|to it this is what I was comfortable with or just something I got used to.

ولا إشي الإشي اللي بدي إياه and not|anything|the thing|that|I want|it And nothing, the thing I want.

وما كانت فكرة كبيرة وكيف تنبأ فيه and not|it was|idea|big|how|he predicted|in it And it wasn't a big idea, and how it was predicted.

إشي تعودت عليه والا إشي اللي بدي إياه الأدام anything|I got used|to it|or|anything|that|I want|it|forward It's something I got used to, or the thing I want in the future.

ما كان عندي ولا أي تصور not|it was|I had|and not|any|idea I had no idea at all.

وما كنت عم بحاول أصلاً نفكر بالموضوع and not|I was|I was|trying|originally|we think|about the topic And I wasn't even trying to think about the subject.

لما دخلت سوق العمل زي أي حدا when|I entered|market|work|like|any|person When I entered the job market like anyone else.

الناس اللي كنت عم بتعامل معهم وعم بحتك فيهم |||||||gesprochen habe| the people|that|I was|I was|dealing|with them|and I was|rubbing|against them The people I was dealing with and interacting with.

وعم بصير صحبين معهم كان من بيئات مختلفة and I was|becoming|friends|with them|it was|from|environments|different And I was becoming friends with them were from different backgrounds.

من خلفيات مختلفة from|backgrounds|different From different backgrounds

غير عن الناس اللي كنت معهم بالمدرسة different|from|people|that|I was|with them|in school Different from the people I was with at school

غير عن الناس اللي كنت معهم بالجامعة different|from|people|that|I was|with them|in university Different from the people I was with at university

ومحيط العائلة والحارة والأصحاب and the environment|family|neighborhood|and friends And the family, neighborhood, and friends environment

اللي بالعادة بكون معهم that|usually|I am|with them Those who usually are with them

فخلال هاي الفترة so during|this|period During this period

نهما الواحد يكون عم بحتك بناس وأشخاص تانين that|one|he is|in the process of|I am interacting|with people|and people|others One is usually interacting with other people and individuals

إلا ما يكون عم بياخد منهم except|that not|he is|in the process of|he is taking|from them Unless one is taking from them

لو أفكار عم بيشوف كيف طريقة حياتهم if|ideas|present continuous marker|he sees|how|way|their life If ideas are seeing how their way of life is

إشي الأشياء اللي بساووها |||machen something|things|that|they do What are the things they do

وفأنا ببلش المقارنة أكتر and I|I start|the comparison|more And I start comparing more

نوعاً ما أنه somewhat|that|that Somewhat that

في أشياء أنا كتير جاعة بالي أسويها من زمان عم بعملها in|things|I|very|hungry|my mind|I do them|since|long time|I am|I am doing them There are many things I have been wanting to do for a long time that I am doing.

ولكن ما بزبط أكون عم بعملها but|not|I can|I be|I am|I am doing them But it doesn't work for me to be doing them.

عشان أكون عم بحترم الإشارة in order to|I be|I am|I respect|the signal In order to respect the signal.

أو أكون عم بساوي الأشياء |||mache| or|I be|I am|I am doing|the things Or to be doing things.

اللي بتكون عم بتمشل صورة جيدة |||beinhaltet|| that|you are|in the process of|including|image|good which is supposed to include a good image

بالشكل اللي متعارف عليه ||üblich| in the way|that|known|on Auf die übliche Art und Weise in the commonly recognized form

النمطي أو الصورة stereotypical|or|image the stereotypical or the image

الدينية اللي لازم تكون موجودة لهم religious|that|must|be|present|for them of the religion that should be present for them

وحتى أول مرة تملكتها الجرأة لمحاولة شلحه |||überkam sie||| and even|first|time|I possessed it|the courage|to attempt|to strip him And even the first time I had the courage to try to undress him.

كانت خارج مساحتها الروتينية والمعتادة she was|outside|her space|routine|and usual It was outside of her routine and usual space.

وهي ببلد تانية and she is|in a country|another And she was in another country.

كنا قصتين we were|two stories We were two stories.

كانت محاولتين it was|two attempts There were two attempts.

الأولى ما كانت ما زبطت والتانية زبطت the first|not|it was|not|it worked|and the second|it worked The first one didn't work out, and the second one did.

الأولى كانت لما the first|it was|when The first one was when

كنت نازلي أنا وأصحابي على مصر I was|going down|I|and my friends|to|Egypt I was going down to Egypt with my friends.

وبحار ومحاولة شلح und Meere|| and seas|and trying|to undress And seas and an attempt to strip.

وبحار وجو حلو والشلة and seas|and atmosphere|nice|and the group And seas and nice weather and the group.

فقررت أنه ما علاش I decided|that|not|a problem So I decided that it's okay.

ثيمة تعالي على حالك theme|come|on|yourself Theme, come to your senses.

عشان تنبسطي هدول كمن يوم so that|you enjoy|these|a few|days So you can enjoy this for a few days.

زي ما بدك like|not|you want As you wish.

فخلينا نشلح الحجاب so let's|we take off|the hijab So let's take off the hijab.

والموضوع أصلاً براسك and the topic|originally|in your head And the matter is already in your head.

فبتجربي أنه تشلحي so you try|that|you take off So you try to undress.

وبعديها يا بتكملي and after that|you|you continue And then either you continue.

يبقى لي شلحة it remains|for me|a taking off I will have a strip.

يا خلص you|finish That's it.

بتلبسي والحياة سعيدة وروح you wear|and life|happy|and spirit You dress me and life is happy and spirit

فش مشكلة there is no|problem There is no problem

فرحنا رحلة خلصنا we enjoyed|trip|we finished We enjoyed the trip, we finished

رجعنا على العمان we returned|to|Oman We returned to Oman

رجعت بدونه I returned|without him I came back without him.

كان كتير غريب it was|very|strange It was very strange.

ما كنت not|I was I wasn't.

مش عارفة إذا مرتاحة not|I know|if|comfortable I don't know if I'm comfortable.

ولا مش مرتاحة ||unwohl nor|not|comfortable I'm not comfortable.

ما بقدر أميز أنه هو بس not|I can|distinguish|that|he|only I can't tell that it's just him.

إشي غريب something|strange It's something strange.

زي كأنه واحد كان تعود like|as if|one|he was|used to It's like someone who was used to it.

يمشي بإيد صار يمشي بلا إيد he walks|with a hand|he became|he walks|without|hand He walks with a hand, now he walks without a hand.

إنه جزء مني he is|part|of me He is a part of me.

من كل هدول السنين صار جزء مني from|all|these|years|he became|part|of me After all these years, he has become a part of me.

فروحت عالبيت I went|to the house So I went home.

أمي بتحكيلي my mom|she tells me My mom is telling me

شو وين الحجاب؟ what|where|the hijab So where is the hijab?

قلت لها خلص تركته I told|her|I am done|I left it I told her I just left it

بتحكيلي طيب زي ما بده قرارك she tells me|okay|like|as|she wants|your decision She tells me, 'Okay, as you wish, it's your decision.'

قلت لها تمام I said|to her|okay I told her okay.

بس؟ قلت لي بس but|I said|to me|but Just? She told me just.

أوكي شكرا okay|thank you Okay, thank you.

البابا لسه ما كان بعرف dad|still|not|he was|I know Dad still didn't know.

اليوم البعده كان عندي دوام today|the next|was|I had|work Today, the day after, I had work.

قلت I said I said.

معلش اليوم مش هنروح الشوال sorry|today|not|we will go|to the mall Sorry, today we won't go to the mall.

روح أقضي يوم عادي go|I spend|day|normal Go spend a normal day.

أطلع أشوف I go out|I see Let me see.

أروح أسوق أعمل I go|I drive|I do I go to drive and do.

أمارس أي I practice|any I practice anything.

إشي الواحد بقدر يكون عم بيعمله بيومه thing|one|I can|he is|ongoing|he is doing|in his day Anything a person can be doing in their day.

طبيعي بس بدون شوال natural|but|without|bag It's natural but without a bag.

مش هنجرب إذا جد بدي أو ما بدي not|we will try|if|really|I want|or|not|I want I won't try if I really want to or not.

رح أكون مرتاحة ولا لا I will|I will be|comfortable|or|not Will I be comfortable or not?

رح أكون قادرة ولا لا I will|I will be|able|or|not Will I be able or not?

لأنه خطوي زي هاي صراحة because|my line|like|this|honestly Because it's like this, honestly.

بدها بيطلع she wants|he will go out It will come out.

وليه رح ياخدو بسوء إيش ما يكون يكون and why|I will|they will take|badly|whatever|not|it will be|it will be And why will they take it badly, whatever it may be.

والله رحت and by God|I went I swear I went.

وكان يومي كتير حلو and was|my day|very|nice My day was very nice.

كتير بسيط وكتير عادي very|simple|and very|ordinary Very simple and very ordinary.

عشان مش عم بتعمل ولا مع أي خدا بعرفني من قبل because|not|present continuous marker|you are doing|not even|with|any|friend|I know him|from|before Because I'm not doing anything with any of the people I know from before.

مش مميزين |nicht besonders not|special They are not special.

مش لحك مش لحك not|I will talk|not|I will talk Not my fault, not my fault

لابسي مش لابسي ما بعرفوني I am wearing|not|I am wearing|not|they know me Wearing it or not wearing it, they don't know me

وكان يوم كتير ممتاز and it was|day|very|excellent And it was a very excellent day

روحت عالبيت I went|to the house I went home

اليوم البعده دوام today|the next|work Tomorrow is a workday.

لازم أداوم must|I attend I have to work.

وليه رحت and why|I went Why did you go?

وليه رحت and why|I went Why did you go?

دوام لازم أداوم work|must|I attend I have to work.

نبست I got stuck I am tired.

رتبت حالي ودي أطلع من باب البيت ||ich möchte|||| I arranged|my situation|I want|I go out|from|door|house I organized myself and I want to go out the door.

مش قادرة not|able I can't.

طب إنه لا well|that|no Well, no.

هلا بدك تاخدي قرار ما بزوط now|you want|you take|decision|not|I am joking Do you want to make a decision that I won't regret?

آه لا لا آه بدك yes|no|no|yes|you want Oh no, no, oh you want to.

فكري think Think about it.

عادت she returned She returned.

قلت بما إنه مش عارفة I said|since|that|not|I know I said since I don't know.

فلسة مش وقته it's not|not|time It's not the right time.

ردي لبست لي شارب |||Schnurrbart my response|I wore|to me|mustache My response was that I wore a mustache.

رحت عالدوام عادي I went|to work|normally I went to work normally.

ما حكيت لخدا not|I told|to her I didn't talk to Khada.

ما حياتي not|my life My life.

الضغط النفسي الي سيمة كانت تشعر فيه the pressure|psychological|that|she|she was|she feels|in it The psychological pressure that Sima used to feel.

ما كان عم بتزحزح عن اكتافها |||verschieben|| not|he was|continuous aspect|he is moving|from|her shoulders It was not budging from her shoulders.

وبالعكس and on the contrary On the contrary.

وزنه عم بزيد his weight|continuous aspect|he is increasing Its weight is increasing.

والتراكم حمل المفارقة الشخصية und die Ansammlung||Paradox| and the accumulation|carrying|paradox|personal Akkumulation birgt persönliche Ironie And the accumulation carries the personal paradox.

الي كانت حاسة فيها that|she was|feeling|in it She was feeling it.

وهذا الي دفعها تجرب تشلح الحجاب ||||abnehmen| and this|that|it pushed her|to try|to take off|the hijab And this is what made her try to take off the hijab.

لمرة تانية for the time|second For the second time.

بعد فترة after|period After a while.

أجي رمضان I come|Ramadan Come Ramadan

ويعني كان and it means|it was And it means that

ممكن في possible|in It could be in

أربع خمسة شهر four|five|months Four or five months

من هاي القصة والقبلية from|this|story|and the tribal From this story and the tribe

مش أكتر not|more Nothing more

في هذا الوقت كنت in|this|time|I was At this time I was

أجيد عم بكون مخنوقة أكتر |||gestresst| I excel|I am|I am|suffocated|more I was good at being more suffocated

ما عم بحس حالي not|I am|feeling|myself I don't feel like myself.

عم بحترم I am|respecting I am respecting.

الإشارة the signal the signal.

ما عم بكون عم بمثله بالصورة الصح not|I am|being|I am|acting like him|in the way|right I am not representing it in the right way.

وما عم بكون أنا مرتاحة and not|I am|I am being|I|comfortable I am not comfortable.

بيني وبين حالي لأنه between me|and|my state|because Between myself and my own self because.

ما عم بكون سيمة not|I am|I am being|a trait I am not being the essence.

الي بدي أكونها that I|I want|to be Of what I want to be.

عم بكون شخصيتين I am|I become|two personalities I have two personalities.

الظاهر للمجتمع غير the appearance|to society|different What appears to society is different.

ومش and not And it's not.

شي كتير لطيف يعني الواحد يكون بوجهين something|very|nice|that means|one|to be|with two faces It's not very nice for someone to have two faces.

أكيد ما كنت surely|not|I was Sure, I didn't.

ما كنت عارفة إمتى بدي not|I was|I knew|when|I want I didn't know when I wanted.

ما أخدي قراري إنه بدي أشلح not|I took|my decision|that|I want|I take off I hadn't made my decision to take it off.

بس إحنا رمضان but|we|Ramadan But it's Ramadan.

مش حاخد هاي الخطوة في رمضان not|I will take|this|step|in|Ramadan I won't take this step in Ramadan.

ما أعرف ليه بس لأنه not|I know|why|but|because I don't know why, but because.

ما رح أخدها في رمضان not|I will|I will take it|in|Ramadan I won't take it in Ramadan.

خلص رمضان finished|Ramadan Ramadan is over.

أول يوم عيد first|day|holiday First day of Eid

من عياد أهل الأب from|holidays|family|father's From the father's family celebrations

تاني يوم عيد من عياد أهل الأم second|day|holiday|from|holidays|family|mother's Second day of Eid from the mother's family celebrations

تالت يوم عيد third|day|holiday Third day of Eid

قلت لأمي خلصت من الإشعار ||||Benachrichtigung I said|to my mother|I finished|from|the notification I told my mother I finished with the notification.

ومثل أول مرة and like|first|time And like the first time.

حاولت سيمة تشلح الحجاب I tried|Sima|she takes off|the hijab Sima tried to take off her hijab.

احترمت أم سيمة قرار بنتها I respected|mother of|Sima|decision|her daughter Um Sima respected her daughter's decision.

واشددت على فكرة Und betonte|| and I emphasized|on|the idea And emphasized the idea

إنه هي وبس هي that|she|only|she That it is only her

إلها الحرية تقرر بهذا الخصوص ||||dieser Hinsicht to her|the freedom|she decides|in this|regard She has the freedom to decide in this regard

موقف شافته سيمة position|she saw|Sima A position that Sima saw

على إنه داعم on|that|supportive He is supportive.

بيعطيها راحة وأمان he gives her|comfort|and safety He gives her comfort and safety.

تحكي لي عيدتي ||meine Tante she tells|to me|my birthday Tell me about my birthday.

وخلصتي كلهم شافوكي بشعر and you finished|everyone|saw you|with hair And you finished, everyone saw you with hair.

هل أقدر تشلحيه do|I can|you take it off Can I take it off?

وقالت لها أه خلص she said|to her|yes|finish And she said, 'Oh, okay.'

مش قادرة ما بدي not|able|not|I want I can't, I don't want to.

فردت فعل أمي she responded|action|my mother My mother's reaction.

كانت It was

بدك تفهمي you want|you understand You want to understand

هذا قرار بينك this|decision|between you This is a decision between you

وبين ربك and between|your Lord and your God

ما حدا بالقدر رح يقدر ييجي حاسبك not|anyone|by fate|will|can|come|I will hold you accountable No one in fate will be able to hold you accountable.

عليه فأنت شو رح تقرري on it|so you|what|will|you will decide So what will you decide?

أنت هتكوني مسؤولة عن القرار you|you will be|responsible|for|the decision You will be responsible for the decision.

رح تاخدي تمام تمام will|you will take|fine|fine You will take it completely.

هلو لهون ممتاز hello|here|excellent Hello, this is excellent.

حيكون في عندك نوعين من الناس there will be|in|you have|two types|of|people You will have two types of people.

النوع رح يعطيكي the type|will|give you One type will give you.

كومبلمنت compliment A compliment.

أحلاكي وشكلك أحلى I sweeten you|and your appearance|more beautiful I adore you and you look even better.

وشعرك وبين and your hair|and between And your hair and between.

وجهك your face Your face.

النوع التاني رح يحكي لك the type|the second|will|he will say|to you The second type will tell you.

حرام ليه بتعملي زي هيك forbidden|why|you do|like|this Why are you doing this?

في حدا الله بيكون هادئ وبيشلح there is|someone|God|he is|calm|and he takes off There is someone who is calm and removes the burden.

الإشار the signal The signal.

ويدعو لك بالهداية and he prays|for you|for guidance And prays for your guidance.

مرة تانية time|second Once again

على الحالتين ما بديك تسمعي لا لهدول in|both cases|not|I want you|you hear|not|to these In both cases, I don't want you to listen to either of these

ولا لهدول nor|to these or those

بدك تفلتري كل الأشياء اللي عم تسمعيها you want|you filter|all|things|that|currently|you hear them You need to filter out everything you are hearing

بتاخدي البديكية بس you take|the dress|but You just take the basics.

عشان ما بصير because|not|it becomes Because it doesn't happen.

تردي تقرري تلبس الإشار you wear|you decide|you wear|the scarf You can't decide to wear the scarf.

بعد بكرة عشان after|tomorrow|because The day after tomorrow for.

إيش الحكي اللي عم تسمعيه من الناس what|talk|that|present continuous|you are hearing|from|people What are you hearing from people?

انت عم تشلحيه هلأ عشانك you|present continuous|you are taking it off|now|for you You are taking it off now for yourself.

مش عشان أي إشي تاني not|for|any|thing|other Not for any other reason.

بس إذا لبستيه كمان يومين but|if|you wear it|also|two days But if you wear it for two more days.

انت مش عم تلبسيه عشان الله you|not|present continuous|you wear it|for|God You are not wearing it for God.

ولا عشان الدين ولا عشان أي إشي nor|for|religion|nor|for|any|thing Nor for religion or for anything.

انت عم تلبسيه عشان الحكي الناس you|present continuous|you wear it|for|talk|people You are wearing it for what people say.

فهي كانت تفعل أمي she|was|doing|my mother That's what my mother used to do.

وكنت كتير مبسوطة أنه عم بسمع and I was|very|happy|that|I am|I hear I was very happy to hear

هادا الكلام this|talk these words

من أقرب حدا لإلي from|closest|person|to me from the closest person to me

وبنفس الوقت and at the same|time at the same time

هي حدا متدين ||religiös she|someone|religious She is very religious.

ومن فترة كتير and for|period|very And it's been a long time.

منيحة وهي ماسكة دينها good|she|holding|her religion She's good and she holds onto her faith.

ردة فعل البابا كانت reaction|action|the pope|was The Pope's reaction was.

كل ما نطلع all|what|we go out Every time we go out

مع بعض ونكون عم نتعرف with|each other|and we are|in the process of|we get to know together and get to know each other

على ناس كان يعرفني أنه on|people|he was|he knew me|that with people who knew me that

هاي بنتي سيمة this|my daughter|Seema this is my daughter Seema

كانت لابسة حجاب she was|wearing|hijab She was wearing a hijab.

وهلأ شلحتها؟ أنه أنا بابا ليه هيك تعمل؟ and now|she took it off|that|I|dad|why|like this|she does And now she took it off? Why does she do that, Dad?

ناس ما بعرفونا people|not|they know us People we don't know.

اللي هي عم تعرفهم علي بهاي الطريقة those who|she|present continuous marker|she knows them|to|this way| The ones she is introducing to us in this way.

إش هيأثر عليك الموضوع؟ what|will affect|on you|the topic How will the topic affect you?

إذا أنت متدعية من الموضوع ||vermeintlich|| if|you|pretending|from|the topic If you are affected by the topic

مش ضروري تكون not|necessary|you are It doesn't have to be

عم بتحكي لكل حدا currently|you are talking|to every|person You are talking to everyone.

ما كان بيأثر علي not|was|it affects|on me It didn't affect me.

هاي طريقة التعريف أبداً ||die Definition| this|way|definition|never This is not a way of definition at all.

لأنه قراري because|my decision Because it's my decision.

وكنت متأكدة منه and I was|sure|of it And I was sure of it.

كنت شوي بزعل I was|a little|I get upset I was a little upset.

علي لأنه كانت دايق كتير on me|because|she was|upset|a lot About him because he was very upset.

اللي هيك عملتي that|like this|you did What you did like that.

إذا بدي أرجع لورا شوي if|I want|to go back|back|a little If I want to go back a little.

لما لبست الحجاب when|I wore|the hijab When I wore the hijab

البابا كان ضد ألبسه the pope|he was|against|I wear it The pope was against me wearing it

وتخنقنا und ersticken uns and it suffocates us And we suffocated

وضلنا ما بنحكي مع بعض and we remained|not|we talk|with|each other And we stopped talking to each other

لمدة شهر أو شهر ونص for|month|or|month|and a half For a month or a month and a half

لأنه ما بده يعني ألبس الحجاب because|not|he wants|I mean|I wear|the hijab Because he doesn't want me to wear the hijab

ويحكيلي لسه صغيرة and he tells me|still|young And he tells me I'm still young

بده مسئولية كتير كبيرة he wants|responsibility|very|big It requires a lot of responsibility

بده كوميتمنت بده حدا جد he wants|commitment|he wants|someone|serious He wants commitment, he wants someone serious.

مخه كامل his mind|full His mind is complete.

مكمل ماسك دينه Ergänzung|| he is continuing|holding|his religion He continues to wear his religion.

عارف أنه هذا قرار كتير مهم he knows|that|this|decision|very|important He knows that this is a very important decision.

فما تلبسي so not|you wear So what if I wear it?

وفيها ركبت راسي |aufgesetzt| and in it|I put on|my head And I have made my decision.

معلش أنا حرة sorry|I|free It's okay, I am free.

وما رح أشلحه and not|I will|I take it off And I will not take it off.

وعارفة إيش بدي ومتأكدة من قراري and I know|what|I want|and I am sure|of|my decision I know what I want and I'm sure of my decision.

حكالي تلبسي he told me|to wear He told me to wear it.

فش رجع there is no|return There's no going back.

فش شلحة لأيله طبعاً ما رح أشلح there is no|taking off|for him|of course|not|I will|I will take off There's no taking it off, of course I'm not going to take it off.

فعشان هيك so|like this That's why.

يمكن هلأ بس maybe|now|just Maybe just now.

إن أقعد بربط الأشياء ببعض that|I sit|I connect|things|to each other I can sit and connect things together.

وكلامه وقتيها and his words|at that time And what he said at that time.

قبل لما لبست وكلامه لما شلحت before|when|I wore|and his words|when|I took off Before I got dressed and his words when I took it off

أكيد كان من surely|it was|from It was definitely from

من وجهة نظر أب from|perspective|view|father From a father's perspective

كان it was It was

مدايق annoyed Upset

عشان الله وعشان المجتمع for|God|and for|society For the sake of God and for the sake of society

مع إنه ردات فعل أهلها with|that|reactions|reaction|her family Even though her family's reactions

كانت مختلفة تماماً they were|different|completely Were completely different

الإشي اللي بيجمعهم the thing|that|brings them together The thing that brings them together

رؤيتهم لعلاقة هذا الفعل their view|on the relationship|this|action Their view of the relationship of this action

وارتباطه بالمجتمع and its connection|to society And its connection to society

طلعنا من دائرة الأهل we got out|from|circle|parents We came out of the circle of family

رحنا على دائرة الشغل والمكتب ||Büro|| we went|to|circle|work|and the office We went to the work department and the office.

أول ما بلشت شغل first|when|I started|work As soon as I started working.

ب in In.

الشركة اللي عم بشتغل فيها the company|that|currently|I am working|in it The company I am working for.

كان فيه وحدة محجبة was|there was|a woman|hijab-wearing There was a woman wearing a hijab.

وشلحة الحجاب and she took off|the hijab And she took off the hijab.

فبتذكر كيف so I remember|how I remember how.

كل المكتب all|the office The whole office.

كانوا يروحوا عندها they were|they go|to her They used to go to her

عالمكتب عشان يشوفوها to the office|in order to|they see her to the office to see her

ف so So

درس مستفاد |gewonnene Erkenntnis lesson|beneficial a lesson learned

كان لألي إنه was|for me|that It was for Ali that

طبعاً عارفة كيف كل حد حيكون of course|I know|how|every|person|will be Of course, I know how everyone will be

عم بيجي عندي عالمكتب اليوم present continuous marker|he is coming|to my|office|today People are coming to my office today

فكنت so I was So I was

تعاملت مع الموضوع بطريقة تانية I dealt|with|the topic|in a way|another I dealt with the issue in a different way.

أول ما دخلت على المكتب first|when|I entered|to|the office As soon as I entered the office.

دخلت على واحد وواحد I entered|to|one|and one I entered with one and one.

إنه لتريلي that|for a trailer It's for the trailer.

غرفة غرفة شخص شخص حكيت لهم room|room|person|person|I told|to them I talked to each person in the room.

صباح الخير morning|good Good morning.

كيفكم كيف يومكم how are you|how|your day How are you? How is your day?

واتمنى لكم يوم سعيد and I wish|to you|day|happy I wish you a happy day.

وبعدين بس خلصت 90 موظف and then|just|I finished|employee And then I finished 90 employees.

4 طوابة رجعت على المكتب boxes|I returned|to|office 4 employees returned to the office.

مرات أفضل وسيلة لأخذ خطوة مفصلية |||||entscheidender Schritt sometimes|best|way|to take|step|pivotal Mal der beste Weg, einen Schritt nach vorne zu machen Sometimes the best way to take a pivotal step

في حيات الشخص in|life|person in a person's life.

أو مجرد نشاط جديد or|just|activity|new Or just a new activity

إنه ينغمر فيه بشكل تام |taucht ein||| he|immerses|in it|in a|complete He immerses himself in it completely

ويأخذ أقصى إجراء and he takes|maximum|action And takes the utmost action

ضربة واحدة من دون مخفف للصدمة ||||Dämpfer| hit|one|without|without|softener|for the shock Ein Treffer ohne Stoßdämpfer A single blow without a shock absorber

أو مطب |Hindernis or|trap Oder eine Beule or a kitchen

وهذا كان خيار سيمة and this|was|option|Sima and this was a prominent option

لفت انتباهي إنه تجارب النساء aufmerksam gemacht|||| caught|my attention|that|experiences|women It caught my attention that the experiences of women

التانيين بخلع الحجاب |das Abnehmen| the others|by removing|the hijab the others in removing the hijab

هم اللي بنوا عن سيمة مخيلة |||||Phantasie they|who|they built|about|trait|imagination Sie sind diejenigen, die eine fantasievolle Eigenschaft entwickelt haben They are the ones who built on the imagination's features.

لشو بيستناها في الشغل for what|he waits for her|in|work What is he waiting for in the work?

وساعد من قدرتها على تخطيط and helped|from|her ability|to|planning And it helped from her ability to plan.

شكل المواجهة في المساحة shape|confrontation|in|space The form of confrontation in the space.

من خلال وضع توقعاتها from|through|putting|her expectations By setting her expectations

ومسارها لكسرهم und ihr Verlauf| and her path|to break them and her path to break them

في ناس كتير بحبهم in|people|many|I love them There are many people I love

بحترمهم I respect them I respect them

وبعنوا لي كتير and they sold|to me|a lot And they sold me a lot

لما شافوني كانوا محبطين جدا |||frustriert| when|they saw me|they were|frustrated|very When they saw me, they were very disappointed

إنه ليه that|why Why?

ليه عملت هاي الخطوة why|I did|this|step Why did I take this step?

بس شافوني حكولي but|they saw me|they told me But they saw me and told me.

كانوا أول شي مسيحيين يتطلعوا علي |||Christen|| they were|first|thing|Christians|they looked|at me At first, they were Christians looking at me.

إنه راسهم بالأرض that|their head|in the ground Their heads were down.

بيحكولي إنه سيمة they tell me|that|feature They told me that it's a sign.

ليش هيك عملتي why|like this|you did Why did you do that?

حرام عليكي تعملي زي هيك forbidden|on you|you do|like|this It's not right for you to do something like that.

قلت لهم خلاص مش مشكلة I told|them|enough|not|problem I told them it's okay, no problem.

إنه هذا قراري that|this|my decision This is my decision.

وأنا بتعامل فيه معاي and I|I deal|in it|with me And I am dealing with it.

محالي my place My shops.

فكانوا بنفس الوقت so they were|same|time So they were at the same time.

عم بيحترموا قراري present continuous marker|they respect|my decision They were respecting my decision.

كانوا عم إنه خلاص إذا هذا قرارك they were|about to|that|enough|if|this|your decision They were like, 'That's it, if this is your decision.'

الله يوفقك الله يهديكي |gutes Gelingen|| God|may He grant you success|God|may He guide you May God grant you success and guide you.

المهم أنت تكوني مرتاحة the important thing|you|you be|comfortable The important thing is that you feel comfortable.

ومبسوطة and happy And happy.

في ناس كان العكس تماما in|people|was|the opposite|completely There are people who were completely the opposite.

إنه ييجوا عندي سيمة أحلاكي that|they come|to me|trait|I like you They come to me with a better attitude.

كتير حلوة very|beautiful Very nice.

واللي ييجي يحكيلي مبروك and whoever|he comes|he tells me|congratulations And whoever comes to tell me congratulations.

وأخيرا واللي يحكيلي finally|and that|he tells me And finally, whoever tells me

طب إنه ليش قررتي تعملي زي هيك well|that|why|you decided|you do|like|this So why did you decide to do this?

كان was There was

كان فيه كوكتيل was|there was|cocktail There was a cocktail

من الشخصيات from|characters From the characters

من ردود الفعل from|responses|reaction From the reactions

اللي عم بدعم واللي عم بحكي مبروك those who|present continuous marker|I support|and those who|present continuous marker|I say|congratulations Those who are supporting and those who are saying congratulations

واللي عم بدعيلي and those who|present continuous marker|I pray for me And those who are praying for me

واللي عم بحكيلي شكلك حلو and the one who|present continuous marker|is telling me|your appearance|nice And the one who is telling me, you look nice.

شكلك حلو your appearance|nice You look nice.

واللي كان يسأل and the one who|was|asking And the one who was asking.

مين هاي موظفة جديدة who|this|employee|new Who is this new employee?

واللي كان ييجي and whoever|was|he comes And whoever would come

يعبطني طب طب علي drückt mich|Medizin|| he hugs me|okay|okay|on me Es macht mich krank, es macht mich krank would tell me to take it easy on myself

يحكيلي حيكون عندك هلا فترة صعبة he tells me|he will be|you have|now|period|difficult would tell me you will have a difficult time now

عشان أهلك والناس والمجتمع because of|your family|and the people|and the society because of your family, people, and society

كانوا خايفين علي they were|scared|for me They were worried about you.

وقلقنين علي and worried| worried|for me And they were anxious about you.

وسيمة إيش ما بدك support Waseema|what|not|you want|support Waseema, whatever support you need.

إحنا رح نكون موجدين معاكي we|will|we will be|present|with you We will be there with you.

رح نكون عم ندعمك we will|we be|currently|we support you We will be supporting you.

إل بدك يعب رح نكون واقفين معاكي that|you want|to fill|we will|we be|standing|with you Whatever you need, we will stand by you.

بقدر كل حدا فيهم I can|every|person|among them I appreciate each one of them.

بكل الأشكال in all|forms In every way.

لأنه ما كان في حدا because|not|was|in|anyone Because there was no one

عم بتعرضلي |passiert mir present continuous marker|he/she is exposing me to who was exposing me

بطريقة سيئة in a way|bad in a bad way

اللي تخليني that|makes me that would make me

مدايقة annoyed Annoyed

وأتعب من جوه mich müde gemacht|| and I get tired|from|inside And tired from the inside

كلهم كانوا عم بيحترموا all of them|they were|continuous tense marker|they respect They were all respecting

بيفرجوا وجهة نظرهم they show|perspective|their They show their point of view

بإحترام with respect With respect

زي ما ردود فعل البيت كانت مختلفة like|that|responses|reaction|house|they were|different Just as the reactions of the house were different

كانت برضو they were|also It was also

انطباعات دوائر سيمة متنوعة Eindrücke||| impressions|circles|distinctive|diverse Impressions of various circles

من ناس زعلت لناس احتفلت فيها from|people|I was upset|for people|I celebrated|in it From people who were upset to people who celebrated it.

وبكل الحالات and in all|cases And in all cases,

الدعم كان موجود support|was|present the support was present.

وحتى لو مش بشكل مباشر and even|if|not|manner|direct And even if not in a direct way.

بس طبعا ما بتخلى المواقف |||lässt weg|die Situationen but|of course|not|I leave|situations Aber natürlich gebe ich keine Positionen auf But of course, situations are not without people

من ناس ما بيعجب هالموضوع from|people|not|they like|this topic who do not like this topic

وبتتعامل معه بسلبية and I deal|with it|negatively and deal with it negatively.

في نقشات كتير there are|discussions|many There are many discussions.

دخلتها مع المقربين I entered it|with|the close ones I entered it with my close ones.

من العائلة في كتير منهم from|the family|in|many|of them There are many of them from the family.

بطل يحكوا معاي للأسف he stopped|they talk|with me|unfortunately Unfortunately, many have stopped talking to me.

من الطاقة الصغير from|the energy|the small From the small energy.

من العائلة from|the family From the family

أو أتليس بطل يحكوا معاي لفترة or|at least|hero|they talk|with me|for a while Or at least a hero to talk to me for a while

من العائلين لما تعودوا عالموضوع from|the two families|when|they got used|to the topic From the families when they got used to the subject

رجوا يحكوا معاي they hoped|they talk|with me They wanted to talk to me

بس في كتير منهم but|there are|many|of them But there are many of them

دخلوا بنقاش ديني they entered|into a discussion|religious They entered into a religious discussion

وليش وكيف and why|and how And why and how

وما بصير وحرام وجنة ونار and not|it is permissible|and forbidden|and paradise|and hell And it is not permissible and it is forbidden, heaven and hell

فكان طريق الوحيد so it was|way|only So it was the only way

اللي اطلع من هذا النقاش that|I got out|from|this|discussion that I could get out of this discussion

اني اكون عم بحكي معاهم that I|I am|in the process of|I am talking|with them was to be talking to them

باسلوب كتير تافه للأسف in a style|very|silly|unfortunately in a very silly manner unfortunately.

عشان So

قادر اخلص النقاش I can finish the discussion

فبحب احكي الجمل I like to say the sentences

اللي كنت عم بحكيها that I was saying

غسلت كل إشارباتي ||my belongings I washed|all|my scarves I washed all my scarves.

ونشرتهم وطاروا und sie flogen| and I spread them|and they flew I hung them up and they flew away.

فبطل عندي ولا أي واحد ألبسه so it became|with me|not|any|one|I wear it So now I have no one to wear.

فمشان هيك اشلحت الهجام so for|this|I took off|the hijab That's why I took off the headscarf.

فلما كان يسمع هاي الجملة so when|he was|he hears|this|sentence When he heard this sentence

يكونوا محبطين they are|frustrated they would be frustrated

بزيادة انه in addition to|that especially since

مش حدا بقدر اتنقش معاه not|anyone|he can|I discuss|with him no one can argue with him

وبس and only That's it.

رد سيمة عجبني كتير response|Sima|I liked|a lot Sima's response really impressed me.

بالنسبة إلها regarding|to her As for her,

أخدت نفس نهج السؤال ||Weg| I took|same|approach|question Ich bin bei der Frage genauso vorgegangen she took the same approach as the question.

وقلبته عن اللي سأله and I turned it|about|that|he asked him And I turned it around from what he asked.

كان عندي فضول أعرف I was|I had|curiosity|to know I was curious to know.

شو كانت طبيعة العلاقة what|it was|nature|relationship What was the nature of the relationship.

ما بينها وبين المجتمع الرقمي between|her|and|community|digital Between her and the digital community.

وهل كانت هاي الردود منعكسة ||||reflektiert and|they were|these|responses|reflected And were these responses reflected

على مواقع التواصل الاجتماعي؟ on|sites|communication| on social media?

وأفهم and I understand And I understand

إذا إلو خصوصيات تجربة سيمة if|to him|private matters|experience|Sima if he has the specifics of a unique experience.

بس كنت محجبة but|I was|hijab-wearing But I was wearing a hijab.

كنت بنزل صور وبس شلحت الإشار I was|I was posting|pictures|and just|I took off|the scarf I used to post pictures and then I took off the scarf.

ضليت أنزل صور I kept|I was posting|pictures I kept posting pictures.

وبالحالتين خليت صوري and in both cases|I kept|my pictures And in both cases, I kept my pictures.

بإشار وبلا إشار with a sign|without|sign With a signal and without a signal

لهلا موجودين عندي until now|they are present|with me They are not available with me

إنستجرام Instagram Instagram

إذا بنا نقعد نحكي عن تفاصيل if|we want|we sit|we talk|about|details If we want to sit and talk about the details

كمية اللايكات والكومنتات amount|likes|and comments The amount of likes and comments

اللي بتيجي that|come that come

على صور بدون إشار on|pictures|without|tags on pictures without tags

أكتر بكتير من more|a lot|than is much more than

اللي بتيجي على بإشار that|comes|to|with a sign The ones that come with a gesture

بشكل كتير غريب عن أصحابي هم هم in a way|very|strange|about|my friends|they|they are very strange compared to my friends, they are the same

الفولوورز هم هم followers|they|they the followers are the same

فكان شوي غريب so it was|a little|strange so it was a bit strange

إنه جد؟ he is|grandfather Is he serious?

في كتير ناس بنتقدوني |||kritisieren mich there is|a lot of|people|they criticize me There are a lot of people criticizing me.

بحكولي إنه طب سيمة ما بدك تيلي صورك they tell me|that|well|Sima|not|you want|to show me|your pictures They tell me, 'Why don't you want to show your pictures?'

اللي بحجاب who|with a hijab The one with the hijab.

أنا لا ما بدي I|not|not|I want I don't want to.

هذيك سيمة وهي سيمة أنا نفسي that|trait|and she|trait|I|myself That is a trait, and it is a trait of myself.

متغيرتش نفس الشخص I haven't changed|same|person I haven't changed, I'm the same person.

بس هاي زمان هاي هلا but|this|long ago|this|now But this is from a long time ago, this is now.

فليه بدي أشيل صوري so|I want|I remove|my pictures So I want to remove my pictures.

يعني اللي بعرفني بعرفني means|the one who|knows me|knows me I mean, those who know me, know me.

والجديد بعرفني and the new one|knows me And the new ones know me.

ما عندي مشكلة إنه يكون يعرف إني كنتي محجبة not|I have|problem|that|he is|knows|that I|you were|hijab-wearing I have no problem with them knowing that I used to wear a hijab.

لأنه هذا جزء من شخصيتي because|this|part|of|my personality Because this is part of my personality.

لتقريبا 11 سنة من حياتي for almost|years|of|my life For almost 11 years of my life.

فليه بدي أخبي 11 سنة so why|I want to|I hide|years So why should I hide 11 years?

عشان شخص جديد هلا عم بتعرف عليه for|person|new|now|I am|you are getting to know|him For a new person I'm getting to know now.

هاي أنا hi|I am Hi, it's me.

عجبك عجبك ما عجبك الله يسرحلي you liked|you liked|not|you liked|God|may he allow me Whether you like it or not, may God make it easy for me.

تجربة الفضاء الرقمي مثيرة للإهتمام ||digitale|exciting|interessant experience|space|digital|exciting|to the interest Das digitale Raumerlebnis ist interessant The experience of digital space is interesting.

لأنه من جهة هاي مساحة مفتوحة because|from|side|this|space|open Because on one hand, this is an open space.

ولو بشكل جزئي even|in a|partial Even if partially

للتعليق وإبداء الإعجاب |and expressing| to comment|and expressing|admiration To comment and express admiration

مش بالعادة بتصير مفاوضاتنا لمساحاتنا الفعلية |||unsere Verhandlungen|für unsere Flächen|tatsächlichen Flächen not|usually|our negotiations happen|our negotiations|for our actual|spaces Unsere Verhandlungen betreffen normalerweise nicht unsere tatsächlichen Räume Our negotiations for our actual spaces don't usually happen

بهاي الطريقة المباشرة in this|way|direct In this direct way

فبالتالي تجعل من السهل رصد شعور الناس ||||beobachten|| thus|you make|it|easy|to monitor|feelings|people Thus, it makes it easy to monitor people's feelings.

عدديا وحتى انزعاجهم numerically|| numerically|and even|their discomfort Numerically and even their discomfort.

من المحتوى اللي منختار ننشره from|content|that|we choose|to publish With the content we choose to publish.

واللي بزيدها تعقيد وجودها كأرشيف لحيواتنا ||Komplexität||als Archiv|unseren Leben and that|it increases|complexity|its existence|as an archive|for our lives And which complicates its existence as an archive of our lives.

ولي بزيدها تعقيد وجودها كأرشيف لحيواتنا and for me|I add to it|complication|its existence|as an archive|for our lives And I have added complexity to its existence as an archive of our lives.

بقدر الواحد يرجع له ويقارن I can|one|he returns|to it|and he compares To the extent that one can refer to it and compare.

بس سيمة ما تلقت ردود فعل من الناس |||erhielt nicht|||| but|the theme|not|it received|responses|reaction|from|people But the feature did not receive reactions from people.

بعد شلحة الحجاب وبس after|I took off|the hijab|and that's it After the removal of the hijab and only that.

قصتها مع الحجاب والمجتمع بتبلش her story|with|the hijab|and society|starts Her story with the hijab and society begins.

وهي لابسته she|wearing it And she is wearing it.

استذكرت معي موقف صدامي ich erinnerte mich|||konfrontativ she recalled|with me|situation|confrontational She recalled a confrontational moment with me.

وهي لابس الحجاب she|wearing|the hijab And she is wearing the hijab.

اضطرت فيه تدافع وتبرر عن نفسها she was forced|in it|she defends|and she justifies|about|herself She was forced to defend and justify herself

وعن نشاطاتها وفردانيتها |ihre Aktivitäten|und Einzigartigkeit and about|her activities|and her individuality and her activities and individuality

يجب أن تتعلم must|to|she learns She must learn

ما هي الحجاب what|it is|the hijab what hijab is

وماذا يجب أن تفعل and what|must|to|you do And what should you do?

وماذا يجب أن تفعل and what|must|to|you do And what should you do?

وماذا يجب أن تفعل and what|must|to|you do And what should you do?

مش يعني not|means I mean

كل المحجبين بالأردن أو بالعالم all|hijab-wearers|in Jordan|or|in the world All the hijab wearers in Jordan or in the world

لازم يكون عم بيعمل اشي must|he is|present continuous|he is doing|something Must be doing something

اللي انا عم بساويه لانه اللي انا عم بساويه that|I|present continuous|I am doing|because|that|I|present continuous|I am doing That I am doing because what I am doing

يمكن يكون صح او خطأ maybe|it is|right|or|wrong Could be right or wrong

بنظر كتير من الناس in the view of|many|of|people In the view of many people

بس ما بنطبق على كل الناس but|not|we apply|on|all|people But it does not apply to everyone

فما بصير نكون عم منعمم ||||verallgemeinern so not|it becomes|we are|in the process of|generalizing So we should not generalize

حاولت ابرر لها انو I tried|to justify|to her|that I tried to justify to her that

لا مش كلنا هيك no|not|all of us|like this No, not all of us are like that.

اذا انت بتعرفي مجموعة من الناس if|you|you know|group|of|people If you know a group of people

زي هيك like|this like that,

برضو لسه مش كلنا زي هيك also|still|not|all of us|like|this still, not all of us are like that.

وللأسف and unfortunately Unfortunately

في كتير ناس بيعممو |||verbreiten there are|many|people|they generalize there are many people who generalize

على هذا الموضوع on|this|topic about this topic

وما بصير and not|it is allowed and it shouldn't be done

ما بصير not|it becomes It cannot be.

ما بصير يكون زي هيك not|it becomes|it is|like|this It cannot be like this.

لما كنا عم نحكي عن هاي الحادثة when|we were|in the process of|we talk|about|this|incident When we were talking about this incident.

بالمقابلة in the interview In the interview.

بينات عليها علامات استياء واضحة |||Unzufriedenheit| signs|on her|marks|displeasure|clear There are clear signs of dissatisfaction on her.

كأنو حاصل هلأ as if|happening|now As if it just happened.

متل هيك موقف بيتردد بذاكرتها |||zögert| like|this|situation|it echoes|in her memory Eine solche Situation taucht in ihrer Erinnerung immer wieder auf Such a situation echoes in her memory.

لما بترجع بترتاد ||besuchen when|she returns|she frequents When she returns, it resonates.

هاي المساحات والاماكن these|spaces|and places These spaces and places

حتى بعد ما شرحت الحجاب even|after|not|I explained|the hijab Even after I explained the hijab

اكيد sure Sure

يعني بقدر احكي عن حالي I mean|I can|I talk|about|myself I mean I can talk about myself

وعن اشخاص عم بشوفهم ببارات عم بكونو محجبين and about|people|present continuous|I see them||present continuous|they are|veiled And about the people I see in the bars, they are wearing hijabs.

اول مرة دخلت first|time|I entered The first time I entered.

كان was It was.

الناس المعاي حكوا لي people|with me|they told|to me The people with me told me.

انو مافش اشي that|there is not|anything There is nothing.

فش حدا عم بتطلع عليكي بطريقة غير there is not|anyone|present continuous|looking|at you|in a way|other No one is looking at you in a different way.

بس انا بيني وبين حالي كنت قادرة but|I|between me|and|myself|I was|able But between me and myself, I was able.

اشوف كل حدا عم I could see everyone.

بتطلع علي I look|at You look at me.

لو نظرة سريعة انو if|glance|quick|that If you take a quick glance at what.

اوفا ينحجب شو عم بتساوي هون |versteckt|||| oh|it gets blocked|what|I am|you are doing|here Wow, what are you doing here?

حتى لو مش عم بشرب بس انو شو عم بتساوي هون even|if|not|I am|I am drinking|but|that|what|I am|you are doing|here Even if I'm not drinking, what are you doing here?

هذا المكان مش لإلك this|place|not|for you This place is not for you.

مش لطيف ابدا not|nice|at all It's not nice at all.

وللأسف ما بعرف ليه عنا and unfortunately|not|I know|why|we have And unfortunately, I don't know why we have it.

بالمجتمع in the community In society.

انو اماكن عامة that|places|public They are public places.

هي عم بتكون they|present continuous marker|they are being They tend to be.

محددة لفئة معينة defined|for a category|specific Designated for a specific group.

من الاشخاص of|people Of people.

لانو كتير ممكن because|a lot|possible Because it's very possible

ناس بتروح علي بارات مش محجبين people|they go|to|bars|not|veiled People go to bars who are not veiled

بس ما بشربو but|not|they drink But they don't drink

او ناس محجبين بروحو وما بشربو or|people|veiled|they go|and not|they drink Or veiled people go and they don't drink

او محجبين وبشربو or|they are veiled|and they drink Or they are veiled and drinking.

وين مشكلة where|problem Where is the problem?

كل واحد بساوي بريحو ليه |||seinen eigenen Weg| every|one|he does|he pleases|why Everyone does what they want, why?

من عمه from|his uncle From his uncle.

حط قيود put|restrictions Put restrictions

لباس بيحمل بطياته |trägt|mit Falten clothing|carries|in its folds Ein Kleidungsstück mit Falten Clothing that carries its folds

مخزون من الافتراضات الاجتماعية Vorrat||| stock|of|assumptions|social Ein Vorrat an gesellschaftlichen Annahmen A stock of social assumptions

والمعاني und die Bedeutungen and meanings And meanings

ممكن يحد ويحط قيود علي لابسه possible|he limits|and he puts|restrictions|on|her clothing It is possible to limit and impose restrictions on what she wears.

لمجرد انو لابسه just|that|she is wearing Just because of what she is wearing.

بتتحول المساحات it turns into|spaces Spaces are transformed.

اللي مفروض تكون مفتوحة وحديثة that|supposed|to be|open|and modern That are supposed to be open and modern.

وعصرية وبتتقبل الكل and modern|and it accepts|everyone And modern and accepting of everyone

لمساحات اقصائية |exklusive to spaces|exclusionary To exclusionary spaces

بتحسس الشخص انو غريب وغير مرغوب فيه it makes feel|the person|that|strange|and not|desired|in it Makes a person feel strange and unwanted

بعيد عن الناس far|| far|from|people Far from people

والضجة والمجتمع und das Geräusch| and the noise|and the community The noise and the community

كان عندي فضول اعرف I was|I have|curiosity|to know I was curious to know

شو كان عم بصير جورا سيمة what|it was|I was|happening|next to|movie What was happening next to the cinema

وبمساحتها الشخصية النفسية mit ihrer persönlichen|| and her personal|psychological|space And in its personal psychological space

بتخيل I imagine I imagine

مش انا لحالي not|I|alone I'm not alone

زي كتير ناس بيكونوا لابسين حجاب وبيشلحوه like|many|people|they are|wearing|hijab|and they take it off Like many people who wear hijab and take it off

الفترة البعديها period|after that The period after that

بصير في عندهم تأنيب ضمير |||guilt|conscience I become|in|they have|guilt|conscience They have a sense of guilt.

داخلي هائل جدا internal|huge|very It's a huge internal conflict.

انا اغلب I|I overcome I mostly.

اللي كنت عم بحكي اشياء عم بتكون that|I was|continuous tense marker|I say|things|continuous tense marker|they are What I was saying was things that are.

ايجابية ردات الناس كانت ايجابية positive|reactions|people|were|positive The people's reactions were positive.

بس بنفس الوقت but|same|time But at the same time,

كان في من جوه تأنيب ضمير there was|in|from|inside|guilt|conscience there was an inner sense of guilt.

بتعب I get tired It's exhausting.

لدرجة انو كان يساوي to the extent|that|he was|equal to To the extent that it was equivalent to

تأنيب ضمير reprimand|conscience guilt

انو لهاي الدرجة تأنيب ضمير that|to this|extent|reprimand|conscience To such an extent that it was guilt

عم بيكون موجود present continuous marker|he is|present It is present

ليش ما عندي فكرة why|not|I have|idea Why do I have no idea?

ايش what What?

الاشياء اللي كانت the things|that|were The things that were...

تترقرت برضو ما عندي فكرة ich habe keine Ahnung|auch||| they were discussed|also|not|I have|idea Ich bin verwirrt, aber ich habe keine Ahnung I also have no idea.

بس بعرف but|I know I just know

انو كان لازم that|it was|necessary that I had to

اعود محالي اكتر ich kehre zurück|meine Möglichkeiten| I return|to my place|more return to my place more

واضل اذكر حالي and I continue|I remember|myself and keep reminding myself

انو انتي that|you That you are

اخدتي هاي الخطوة you took|this|step You took this step

الاسباب كتيرة وهذا كان قرارك reasons|many|and this|was|your decision There are many reasons and this was your decision

ولازم and must And it must be

تكوني عم تتعاملي بالموضوع you are|currently|you are dealing|with the subject You are dealing with the subject

بشكل in a way in a way

عقلاني اكتر من rational|more|than more rational than

اوف عملت زي هيك oh|I did|like|this Oh, I did it like that

وما كان لازم اعمل and not|was|necessary|I do And I didn't have to do it.

واكون عم بساوي دور طحية بيني وبين ||||Schwäche|| and I am|in the process of|I am making|role|sacrifice|between me|and And I was playing a role of sacrifice between me and.

حالي الملجاعي my situation|my refuge My refuge.

وما كانت فترة and not|was|period And it wasn't a period.

سهلة يعني easy|means It's easy, you know.

ممكن ست شهر كاملين possible|six|months|full It could be a full six months.

من بعد مشلحت الاحجاب وانا بس after|after|I took off|the hijab|and I|only Since I took off the hijab, I've just

امعلقة بنفس المكان I am hanging|in the same|place been stuck in the same place.

واصعب and harder And the hardest

اشي كان انو thing|was|that thing was that

كتير ما كنت قادرة very|not|I was|able I was not able to

احكي هاي الفكرة I say|this|idea express this idea

لاي حدا براسي no|one|in my head No one is in my head.

لانو كنت عم بسمع because|I was|progressive marker|I was listening Because I was listening.

جوابهم انو سيمة their answer|that|it is Their answer is that it is a trait.

هذا كان قرارك ما بصير this|was|your decision|not|it is allowed That was your decision, it cannot be.

هلأ تيجي تحكي زي هيك now|you come|you talk|like|this Now you come and talk like this

انو كنتي عارفة فليه اخدتي هالقرار that|you were|knowing|why|you took|this decision That you knew, so why did you make this decision

اذا بدك كوني هلأ if|you want|be|now If you want to be now

عم تحكي فيه I am|you talk|about it Talking about it

بس هذا كان صوت براسي but|this|was|sound|in my head But that was a voice in my head.

ما سمعتاش ولا من حدا not|I heard it|nor|from|anyone I didn't hear it from anyone.

لانو ما كان عندي جرأ احكي because|not|was|I had|courage|to speak Because I didn't have the courage to speak.

بالموضوع لأي حدا about the subject|to any|anyone About the subject to anyone.

وقطعت And she cut off

رغم الصعوبات المجتمعية Despite the societal difficulties

والعائلية والنفسية And family and psychological issues

قرار سيمة هو اللي The decision is Sima's

ظال بالاخير wrong|in the end In the end, it was oppressive.

وساعدتها وحريتها بملاحقة ||bei der Verfolgung and I helped her|and I freed her|in pursuing And I helped her and her freedom in pursuit.

هاي السعادة طغت على كل this|happiness|overwhelmed|on|all This happiness overshadowed everything.

اشي تاني thing|other Anything else.

وبالاخير and finally And in the end

هلأ مبسوطة كتير؟ now|happy|very Are you very happy now?

بكون حالي I will be|my situation I will be in my situation

كل واحد يسأل البيت every|one|asks|the house Everyone asks about the house

اللي هو بيكون مرتاح له that|he|he will be|comfortable|to him which he feels comfortable with

قصتنا اليوم كانت قصة سيمة our story|today|it was|story|Sima Our story today was the story of Seema

قصة واحدة من الكتير قصص story|one|of|many|stories A story among many stories

قصص لناس التارو يلبسوا الحجاب stories|for people|who|they wear|hijab Stories of people who wear the hijab

او التارو يشلحوا or|they|they take off Or the tarot will strip away

بتمنا انها قضاءت على جوانب ||hat abgeschlossen|| I hope|that|she finished|on|aspects Ich hoffe, dass dadurch einige Aspekte beseitigt wurden I hope it has addressed aspects

جديدة من رؤيتنا لدينا new|of|our vision|we have New ones of our vision

مكيات الحجاب والحركة في المدينة places|hijab|and movement|in|the city The mechanics of the veil and movement in the city

زي ما علمتني واغنط نظري |||und schließe| like|not|you taught me|and I ignore|my view Wie du es mir beigebracht hast, habe ich meine Meinung geändert As you taught me, and I broaden my vision

بخيط جديد لحبل عريض |||breit with a thread|new|for a rope|wide With a new thread for a wide rope

بيحمل تعددات كتير |Vielfältigkeiten| it carries|multiplicities|many That carries many diversities

وطيف كامل من التجارب vollständige Palette||| and a spectrum|full|of|experiences And a complete spectrum of experiences

بدي اشكر سيمة على السماح لإلنا I want|to thank|Seema|for|allowing|to us I want to thank Seema for allowing us

بالقاء نظر على حياتها werfen||| to cast|glance|at|her life to take a look at her life

ونسمع عن تجربتها and to hear|about|her experience and to hear about her experience

مع نسيجها المجتمعي من القلب |ihr Gewebe||| with|her fabric|social|from|the heart with her community fabric from the heart

كنا معكم من الاعداد we were|with you|from|the preparations We were with you from the preparation

الكتابة والتقديم مراما سبانخ writing|and presenting|Marama|Spanach Writing and presentation by Marama Sabanekh

من التحرير صبرين طاها from|editing|Sabreen|Taha From editing Sabreen Taha

ومن النشر والتواصل and from|publishing|and communication And from publishing and communication

مراما النبالي وبيان حبيب Marama|Al-Nabali|and Bayan|Habib Marama Al-Nabali and Bayan Habib

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